Wednesday, May 23, 2012


I know this sounds crazy, but I was worried when I was about to become a grandma for the first time.  I didn’t know how to be a grandma.  I had no idea that I would fall in love with him at the first glance of his sweet little face.  But that is exactly what happened.  And then, I couldn’t stay away from him—I just loved him so much!

I am pretty sure I drove my son and daughter-in-law nuts at the hospital because I visited a lot and stayed too long!  I couldn’t help it.  This little baby was just so amazing and he stole my heart!

Last week, I became a grandma to another sweet baby boy.  I kind of wondered about myself again.  Would I be able to feel the same instant huge amount of love for my next grandchild? 

I really was crazy to even wonder.  I have more capability to love than I even knew I had.  Guess what happened at the first glance of this new amazing baby—I fell in love with him!

We were all supposed to be in the room when number 1-- Bridge was born, but his heart rate kept dropping too much.  We were sent out to the waiting room while he was delivered by C-section.  It was nerve-wracking, but everything turned out just fine and he arrived with no more problems and was just perfect!

This time for grandson number 2, we were in the room again, and we were able to stay for the entire delivery.  It was one of the most incredible experiences I have had in my life so far.  I was able to see the entire birth (while I was trying to remember to take pictures of my daughter as she pushed with all her might).  The minute that little Jay made his appearance I was in tears and in awe that I had just seen him born.  I stopped taking pictures and could only stand there, not doing anything.  I even missed taking the picture of my son-in-law cutting the cord.  Oops!  It was a wonderful experience and I was so proud of Kj and what she was able to do! 

So, yes--I was crazy to doubt myself.  I love, love, love both of my grandsons.  I love being a grandma and I think I can stop doubting my ability to let more love fill my heart as my kids add to their families.

My daughter, Kj and her husband Mark, happen to live about 1 1/2 hours away and that is hard.  I went to the hospital for a couple of hours the day after he was born and was able to see him go home for the first time on Mother’s Day.  Then, about 4 days later, I stayed with them for 2 days.  That was great and I got a lot of Grandma-time in.  I almost did not want to leave.  It is kind of hard not knowing when I will get to see him again.  He will grow so fast.  He can already turn his head from side to side while having tummy time and has been able to do that from his first day!

Bridge sure has grown fast.  He is just over 2 years old, is already potty-trained, loves to have fun, is not afraid of anything, speaks in long sentences, and is great at expressing his ideas.  He is so cute and so much fun.

Yes, being a Grandma is the greatest. 

I give big thanks to my children and their spouses for these great additions to my life.

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